The subtle touches showing you care
Catching me staring at you when you’re focused and seeing your smile
My misery turned to joy
My anxiety changed from tropical storms to calming sea
But every time I get that feeling it’s the wrong time
Right when I was doing good on my own the unsettling feeling of I deserve to be alone comes creeping back in
Back to being that girl in high school that was made fun of
Scareface girl cause of a birthmark
Still the same feeling of being laughed at every time
Why am I even here ?
have I really kept myself alive up to this point?
Or did I actually succeed and this is my personal hell that I’ve wrapped myself in
Repeating the same things
Bringing my worse fears to life
So is it really the wrong time and place or is this hell ?